3 weeks of meds

Hello again

It's been a few days since I have posted. There are multiple reasons - work, play, more work, but the number one reason is that not much has changed since I last wrote here.

I continue to experience anxiety - less frequently, but when it does hit - it hits so hard. I feel shakey and nervous, and it feels like I can feel my heart beating hard. I feel my pulse, but it doesn't seem to be any different than before, so I guess it's just the nerves.

I am at 3 weeks today with the Truvada / Sustiva combo, and all in all, I have to say that I am pleased that the side effects have not been worse. I have not missed a dose. I came close once, but remembered as I was drifting off to sleep. The cheif complaint remains that pesky anxiety. I feel it now, have since I woke up pretty much. It just feels like something is wrong that I can't quite put my finger on, and it builds and builds.

I took some magnolia bark and another supplement to help me relax about a half hour ago, so I hope that will nip it in the bud. I continue to take the antidepressant as well. I hope these things will start to kick in soon. There is still some work I need to do for my work project, as well as expense reports that are piling up. I hope that will occupy me enough that I can keep from getting to wrapped up in what my body and brain are telling me.

Happy 4th of July

I have family visiting, so finding time to post has been fairly limited. That is a good thing, we have been busy with the usual holiday stuff. Nothing major, nice relaxing, boring at times...

I decided not to tell my family anything about my status at this point. It's too early. I would rather wait and see how my body is going to respond to the HIV meds before telling them. I mean, I would like to say - I am undetectable and not having any side-effects, etc so that they don't worry too much. Worrying will be inevitable, but I would like to think good news would minimize it.

I continue to have issues with anxiety - the antidepressant and anti-anxiety meds are helping to mask it to the point the family havn't mentioned it, but it gets difficult at times. Today is hard I think - because it feels more like a Sunday to me. I know that they will be leaving tomorrow and I will have work to do and be stuck inside for lengths of time. Just a big come down after the visit.

As far as side-effects, the break out seems to be letting up and the anxiety is managable. I was more worried about GI upset while they are visiting, but that hasn't been an issue yet, and a minor one since starting the meds. I continue to hope that the anxiety will respond to the antidepressant and time.

I am looking forward to some degree to having my space back tomorrow, and having more time to write.

7/2 - Side Effects / Depression / Anxiety