Chatting away

I lot of people have found my blog from when I am chatting on Gay.com. It is comforting, but kind of over-whelming at the same time. I certainly don't mind chatting with people about this, it is actually very reassuring. But there are times when there are too many conversations going at the same time. That doesn't bother me, really. I just feel bad if I don't talk to everyone. I can only do 3 or so at a time to still be able to follow the conversations.

Then - I have this thing - not proud of it, but... I get weirded out when I see naked / pornographic pics of the guys trying to chat with me. I don't mind if all they are trying to do is chat. I am not ashamed of my body, I don't expect others to be - that it doesn't mean that they are looking for anything. But there are times when they do try to get me into conversations I don't want to have. So rather than start chatting, I clam up.

This happens sometimes with fully clothed guys as well - but not as often. That freaks me out even more. It especially is worrysome when someone who is neg starts coming onto me, or talking about barebacking. It really makes me wonder.

I was chatting with a guy - a young young guy - the other night, so confided that he has fantasies about being barebacked by someone who is poz. I hope that a fantasy is all it is. We have all heard the news reports about bug chasers and gift givers. I just shake my head. I don't know if I think it really exists to any real degree, but I am sure there are small numbers of people who fit the bill. I think the vast numbers of people who talk about this are expressing fear fantasies - I hope I am right about that.

If you are someone who reads this - and you try to chat with me with a naked pic... that's ok. But please make it obvious in your 1st line that you aren't looking for or want to talk about sex. That's something I can't do right now.

Be Well